I'm sitting in the living room - enjoying the heat of the wood burning stove and drowning out the dull humming of the fan.
I can hear my family talking in the other room.
You can't see out the windows of the west wall because it's dark. But you can see the reflection of all the Christmas lights and candles scattered about the house.
It's beautiful.
It's good to be home.
I was even daring enough leave to ALL my school books back in the Valley. Okay, not ALL my books - I brought my medical encyclopedia, dictionary with me; you'll never know when you might need that! As I was packing to come home for Christmas Laura, my host sister, said I should bring a book with me; the one that she had put on my desk which had been sitting there past two months. "I know you'll be home with your family - but you should take it. Make an effort. For me; just take it with you, you might get around to it."
I looked at the book. I had been avoiding it the entire term; but I smiled at Laura and grabbed the book and put it in the box. I'm not going to read that. I thought to myself. I won't even have the time. Besides my folks will want me spending time with the family, not wrapped up in some book. That's it - it will be a good excuse. I looked up and smiled at Laura.
It's not like I don't like to read...I love reading. I'm a book-a-holic! I could walk in a book store as long as if not longer than my favorite clothing store - and that's sayin' something!
I sort of forgot about the book when I got home, until my Mama asked about it. I said I brought it back with me and that Laura had wanted me to read it, but I didn't want to. My Mama inquired why.
"I don't know, it's kidna got an interesting story line. It's based off of the book of Hosea."
She just looked at me - it's not like she didn't know what Hosea is about. It was more like that 'what did you learn in Sunday school and tell me about it' type look. "It's about a harlot, a prostitute and how a godly man marries her as a word from the Lord and loves her no matter what. To show her what true love is - kinda of a type of Christ with us, you know?"
"Hmmm."
"But because of the content I didn't know if I really wanted to read it." I was sure this would get me off the hook.
"I'll skim through it for you - and let you know."
"Yeah that would be great - let me know what you think."
Well she read it - and said "Well it's not one that you can "skim". I don't think its a easy read, especially for someone like you and me. I'm not sure why, but understanding and accepting God's love is just hard for us. But I think it would be a really good read. Especially with the recent events, Sarah. And I think you should read it here at home, where you can kinda let your guard down and really take it as it is."
Great. I thought - there is still no way I'm reading it. It's Christmas, I have tons to do helping around the house, because Em can't this year - I'll totally have my hands full. Besides, who wants to go through all that "stuff" when it's Christmas time?
The high cost of regret versus costly repentance
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I was always told that you get what you pay for. One can buy something
cheap, but only if one doesn't mind having to pay the cost again, and
again, and ye...
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